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"content": "Escape<br />Isn't that what we all yearn for?<br />A short lived happiness<br />And selfconvicton<br />That all is as it should be<br /><br />Moments of solitude<br />The smell of sunrise<br />The warmth on our faces<br />Maybe a wet soil under our feet<br />Slowly heating up while we walk<br /><br />We love to hide under it<br />The beauty is always appealing<br />The fragrance like that of a flower<br />Yes, we delude ourselves<br />Escape<br /><br />But pain<br />The ultimate sacrifice<br />How we know we're still alive<br />Is ever present<br />Patiently awaiting our arrival<br /><br /><br /><br /><a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=poetry\" title=\"#poetry\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#poetry</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=writing\" title=\"#writing\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#writing</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=freewrite\" title=\"#freewrite\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#freewrite</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=healing\" title=\"#healing\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#healing</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=originalcontent\" title=\"#originalcontent\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#originalcontent</a>",
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"content": "Escape\nIsn't that what we all yearn for?\nA short lived happiness\nAnd selfconvicton\nThat all is as it should be\n\nMoments of solitude\nThe smell of sunrise\nThe warmth on our faces\nMaybe a wet soil under our feet\nSlowly heating up while we walk\n\nWe love to hide under it\nThe beauty is always appealing\nThe fragrance like that of a flower\nYes, we delude ourselves\nEscape\n\nBut pain\nThe ultimate sacrifice\nHow we know we're still alive\nIs ever present\nPatiently awaiting our arrival\n\n\n\n#poetry #writing #freewrite #healing #originalcontent",
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"content": "I am similar in that I enjoy quiet, maybe above all else, in my environment. As well, I’m a private person.<br /><br />I think the struggle of finding a ‘balance’ is common in those who are introverted. Personally I don’t like the term balance. It implies a stasis. The world at large and at small around me is in flux. I prefer to think of it as an integration. How do I integrate enough socializing into my life so that I’m not completely detached, while ensuring I can also have the alone time I need to focus on work, hobbies, and thinking. You could say the semantics is a framing device for me to make sure I’m not worried about something that is typically brief and unattainable for long term. It’s for me to recognize when I need to have interaction with others.<br /><br />I’ve found that I’m able to do this most of the time thanks to two particular friends of mine. I say most of the time because I’m not perfect at reaching out when I should. To me, this is that ‘struggle’ you mentioned. Reaching out when it’s necessary or responding in a timely manner when one of these friends contacts me.<br /><br />How does framing the issue this way relate to staying grounded? It’s in the quality of those friendships. What I’m able to discuss with them are boundless. Psychology, arts, music, philosophy, politics, science, culture, society, history, family, our personal quirks, the things we love and hate. What’s more is we can have these discussions in an open manner, with no judgment and the freedom to explore ideas. It’s grounding because we both can come away from a discussion enlightened yet still questioning, comfortable that neither of us share our concerns alone, and supported that we are there for each other. <br /><br />This contact satisfies both my desire for deep discussions and my need for socializing, yet it’s limited enough to allow me the quiet and solitude I desire and need.",
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"content": "I am similar in that I enjoy quiet, maybe above all else, in my environment. As well, I’m a private person.\n\nI think the struggle of finding a ‘balance’ is common in those who are introverted. Personally I don’t like the term balance. It implies a stasis. The world at large and at small around me is in flux. I prefer to think of it as an integration. How do I integrate enough socializing into my life so that I’m not completely detached, while ensuring I can also have the alone time I need to focus on work, hobbies, and thinking. You could say the semantics is a framing device for me to make sure I’m not worried about something that is typically brief and unattainable for long term. It’s for me to recognize when I need to have interaction with others.\n\nI’ve found that I’m able to do this most of the time thanks to two particular friends of mine. I say most of the time because I’m not perfect at reaching out when I should. To me, this is that ‘struggle’ you mentioned. Reaching out when it’s necessary or responding in a timely manner when one of these friends contacts me.\n\nHow does framing the issue this way relate to staying grounded? It’s in the quality of those friendships. What I’m able to discuss with them are boundless. Psychology, arts, music, philosophy, politics, science, culture, society, history, family, our personal quirks, the things we love and hate. What’s more is we can have these discussions in an open manner, with no judgment and the freedom to explore ideas. It’s grounding because we both can come away from a discussion enlightened yet still questioning, comfortable that neither of us share our concerns alone, and supported that we are there for each other. \n\nThis contact satisfies both my desire for deep discussions and my need for socializing, yet it’s limited enough to allow me the quiet and solitude I desire and need.",
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"content": "I'M GONNA REMIND THIS FOR SEVERAL REASONS:<br /><br />I like her and in some ways she reminds me of my daughters and an old friend of mine.<br /><br />I was young once and I understand, though I am a more social, extroverted person probably<br /><br />The whole covid crap with my society did me a lotta good - I charged into it headfirst. From renovating my house to beginning new careers to Revolting openly against my government, etc.<br /><br />I like Peace but it's not my prime driver. Truth, the Good, and Courage are. But I'm not her and not implying otherwise about her.<br /><br />I'm saying everyone has their own Fate and Wyrd in life, their own Character and Nature, and their own Virtues to pursue and vices to kill.<br /><br />I just think that for this time in history Courage is a more important overall Virtue than Peace. For this time. Then again I'm a man and a barbarian and aggression is written into me. My wife also prefers Peace. Most women/females do. I don't ask women to be men or encourage men to be female.<br /><br />But mostly I am reminding this for this reason.<br /><br />Yes, I have a method and technique I want to suggest:<br /><br />Divide everything in your Life into two basic categories; Good/Advantageous/Profitable/Useful Stress or Hardship, and Bad/Malignant/Hampering/Unprofitable/Useless stress or hardship.<br /><br />Then go seek out and train at as much of the Good stress and hardship as you can and enjoy the hell out of that.<br /><br />(To me good stress is training, exercise, service, exploration, fighting some fights, suppressing evil, scientific experiences, friendships and family, investment, inventing, creating, danger and risk, facing Death, physical endurance, my religion, and God.)<br /><br />But mitigate or kill off as much of the bad or harmful stress and hardship as you can.<br /><br />(To me bad stress is crime, vice, the suffering of others, cowardice, personal dishonor, dishonesty and hypocrisy, tyranny, terrorism, laziness, conformity, submission, effeminacy, and unmanliness.)<br /><br />But don't confuse those different types of stress or try to respond to them in the same way.<br /><br />Exploit Good Stress, kill the bad.<br /><br />Do that and your life will change for the better. And you will be much Happier and more at ease.<br /><br />Well, I gotta go do some work.<br /><br />Have a Great Day Folks...",
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"content": "I'M GONNA REMIND THIS FOR SEVERAL REASONS:\n\nI like her and in some ways she reminds me of my daughters and an old friend of mine.\n\nI was young once and I understand, though I am a more social, extroverted person probably\n\nThe whole covid crap with my society did me a lotta good - I charged into it headfirst. From renovating my house to beginning new careers to Revolting openly against my government, etc.\n\nI like Peace but it's not my prime driver. Truth, the Good, and Courage are. But I'm not her and not implying otherwise about her.\n\nI'm saying everyone has their own Fate and Wyrd in life, their own Character and Nature, and their own Virtues to pursue and vices to kill.\n\nI just think that for this time in history Courage is a more important overall Virtue than Peace. For this time. Then again I'm a man and a barbarian and aggression is written into me. My wife also prefers Peace. Most women/females do. I don't ask women to be men or encourage men to be female.\n\nBut mostly I am reminding this for this reason.\n\nYes, I have a method and technique I want to suggest:\n\nDivide everything in your Life into two basic categories; Good/Advantageous/Profitable/Useful Stress or Hardship, and Bad/Malignant/Hampering/Unprofitable/Useless stress or hardship.\n\nThen go seek out and train at as much of the Good stress and hardship as you can and enjoy the hell out of that.\n\n(To me good stress is training, exercise, service, exploration, fighting some fights, suppressing evil, scientific experiences, friendships and family, investment, inventing, creating, danger and risk, facing Death, physical endurance, my religion, and God.)\n\nBut mitigate or kill off as much of the bad or harmful stress and hardship as you can.\n\n(To me bad stress is crime, vice, the suffering of others, cowardice, personal dishonor, dishonesty and hypocrisy, tyranny, terrorism, laziness, conformity, submission, effeminacy, and unmanliness.)\n\nBut don't confuse those different types of stress or try to respond to them in the same way.\n\nExploit Good Stress, kill the bad.\n\nDo that and your life will change for the better. And you will be much Happier and more at ease.\n\nWell, I gotta go do some work.\n\nHave a Great Day Folks...",
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"content": "Do you think hope can be killed?<br />Like a bird in a cage<br />Whose wings are clipped<br />And isn't allowed to fly<br /><br />Do you think hope can be miserable?<br />Like a child full of dreams<br />But squashed and told to sit<br />And everything taken away<br /><br />Is hope a lie?<br />A way we convince ourselves<br />That we'd get through it<br />Day by day as we refuse to see the truth<br /><br />Is hope dead?<br />A joke born from hatred<br />Lost dreams<br />Regrets, wishes<br /><br />Do you think hope is unhappiness?<br />Alone, ashamed<br />Broken pieces that can't be fixed<br />Dead, yes dead<br /><br /><br /><a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=poetry\" title=\"#poetry\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#poetry</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=writing\" title=\"#writing\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#writing</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=hope\" title=\"#hope\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#hope</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=healing\" title=\"#healing\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#healing</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=originalcontent\" title=\"#originalcontent\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#originalcontent</a>",
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"content": "Do you think hope can be killed?\nLike a bird in a cage\nWhose wings are clipped\nAnd isn't allowed to fly\n\nDo you think hope can be miserable?\nLike a child full of dreams\nBut squashed and told to sit\nAnd everything taken away\n\nIs hope a lie?\nA way we convince ourselves\nThat we'd get through it\nDay by day as we refuse to see the truth\n\nIs hope dead?\nA joke born from hatred\nLost dreams\nRegrets, wishes\n\nDo you think hope is unhappiness?\nAlone, ashamed\nBroken pieces that can't be fixed\nDead, yes dead\n\n\n#poetry #writing #hope #healing #originalcontent",
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"content": "I wrote this while watching Dickinson season 3. When I watched season 1 and 2, I was going through what might be a block. While I enjoyed the poems, I didn't create any. But this season, my words are back so this came out.<br /><br />Take a look.<br /><br />--<br /><br />Hope is like a bird<br />A thing with feathers<br />And blindingly beautiful colours<br />Flapping in rhythm<br />Mouth chirping as it flies<br /><br />It's like love<br />The slender fingers of lovers<br />Entwined in peace and passion<br />Words unspoken yet understood<br />Feelings always on the surface<br /><br />It's also exhausting<br />Like having little children<br />Feeding them, clothing them<br />Or waiting for a new born to come<br />Wishing it happens the day you want<br /><br />I'd stick with birds and love<br />Maybe a little nature and quiet<br />The steps are easier that way<br />More accepting and brighter<br />Almost like a perfect world.<br /><br /><br /><br /><a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=poetry\" title=\"#poetry\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#poetry</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=writing\" title=\"#writing\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#writing</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=hope\" title=\"#hope\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#hope</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=life\" title=\"#life\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#life</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=originalcontent\" title=\"#originalcontent\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#originalcontent</a>",
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"content": "I wrote this while watching Dickinson season 3. When I watched season 1 and 2, I was going through what might be a block. While I enjoyed the poems, I didn't create any. But this season, my words are back so this came out.\n\nTake a look.\n\n--\n\nHope is like a bird\nA thing with feathers\nAnd blindingly beautiful colours\nFlapping in rhythm\nMouth chirping as it flies\n\nIt's like love\nThe slender fingers of lovers\nEntwined in peace and passion\nWords unspoken yet understood\nFeelings always on the surface\n\nIt's also exhausting\nLike having little children\nFeeding them, clothing them\nOr waiting for a new born to come\nWishing it happens the day you want\n\nI'd stick with birds and love\nMaybe a little nature and quiet\nThe steps are easier that way\nMore accepting and brighter\nAlmost like a perfect world.\n\n\n\n#poetry #writing #hope #life #originalcontent",
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"content": "I've been battling with myself about a lot of things. Should I do this? Do I do it this way? What would happen if I ignore? What if I don't? Will I harm myself and mental health later by looking away? Will I regret doing it?<br /><br />I'm this person who loves peace. Quiet is one things I cherish so much, be it people or environment. I'm also a very private person. But this past week, I pushed myself very hard. I believed I was in a good enough place to venture out of my comfort zone. And I did. The outcome? Beautiful. Is it taking a toll on my mental health? Definitely! The moments I had this past week, I wouldn't want to reverse. At the same time, I'm trying to get myself to stay afloat without falling in first. It's so easy to fall in.<br /><br />To answer the question; how do I keep myself grounded? I disappear.<br /><br />Less contact from people has always helped me think and get back to doing the things I love. I however, discovered that I loved it a little too much that it's always difficult for me to pull myself out. In as much as l love the comfort and peace it brings me, I also need the outside world from time to time to function. The struggle is finding a balance. I'm yet to get there.<br /><br />If this question had come this time last year, I probably would have said that I keep grounded by staying permanently away from everything. I was in so much pain at the time that I didn't even realise how much I needed a break from myself. The thought of the outside world seemed like a punishment. I wanted nothing to do with anyone and I didn't even realise I was hurting those who loved me in the process. Looking back, it was so horrible. But look at me now. Not a place I would want to go back to or wish anyone to be in.<br /><br />I'm currently trying to keep grounded; one of the many times. I've also disappeared but still reachable. It has been a constant battle which I'm winning. It feels like learning a new lifestyle. It isn't very easy when you're trying to change and relearn the life you've known and lived by for years. It's like a baby learning new steps. Acceptance is one thing, but acting on it is a completely different ball game. Am I happy? Sure! That's the most important thing.<br /><br />A friend recently told me that I have a way of navigating towards the things I want. It doesn't matter how much time it takes me, I would still get there. And she was right. And I believe staying grounded and true to myself has helped. The little things they say makes the most difference.<br /><br />Away from the mental stuff (which comes first for me then spreads), covid has contributed to an immense shift and growth. Almost everyone I know has become more responsible. For me, I pay more attention to the things I feed myself. Food is one thing, mainstream media is another. I grew up so much and I love that I did. The lockdown didn't really take a lot from me, like most people, because I'm a indoor person. I just did what I knew how to do best – get lost within myself. But I also learned that I needed to be there more for the people I care about. Anything can happen at any time.<br /><br />This has been my methods. Why don't you tell me yours?<br /><br /><br /><a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=psychology\" title=\"#psychology\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#psychology</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=life\" title=\"#life\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#life</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=survival\" title=\"#survival\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#survival</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=healing\" title=\"#healing\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#healing</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=originalcontent\" title=\"#originalcontent\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#originalcontent</a>",
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"content": "I've been battling with myself about a lot of things. Should I do this? Do I do it this way? What would happen if I ignore? What if I don't? Will I harm myself and mental health later by looking away? Will I regret doing it?\n\nI'm this person who loves peace. Quiet is one things I cherish so much, be it people or environment. I'm also a very private person. But this past week, I pushed myself very hard. I believed I was in a good enough place to venture out of my comfort zone. And I did. The outcome? Beautiful. Is it taking a toll on my mental health? Definitely! The moments I had this past week, I wouldn't want to reverse. At the same time, I'm trying to get myself to stay afloat without falling in first. It's so easy to fall in.\n\nTo answer the question; how do I keep myself grounded? I disappear.\n\nLess contact from people has always helped me think and get back to doing the things I love. I however, discovered that I loved it a little too much that it's always difficult for me to pull myself out. In as much as l love the comfort and peace it brings me, I also need the outside world from time to time to function. The struggle is finding a balance. I'm yet to get there.\n\nIf this question had come this time last year, I probably would have said that I keep grounded by staying permanently away from everything. I was in so much pain at the time that I didn't even realise how much I needed a break from myself. The thought of the outside world seemed like a punishment. I wanted nothing to do with anyone and I didn't even realise I was hurting those who loved me in the process. Looking back, it was so horrible. But look at me now. Not a place I would want to go back to or wish anyone to be in.\n\nI'm currently trying to keep grounded; one of the many times. I've also disappeared but still reachable. It has been a constant battle which I'm winning. It feels like learning a new lifestyle. It isn't very easy when you're trying to change and relearn the life you've known and lived by for years. It's like a baby learning new steps. Acceptance is one thing, but acting on it is a completely different ball game. Am I happy? Sure! That's the most important thing.\n\nA friend recently told me that I have a way of navigating towards the things I want. It doesn't matter how much time it takes me, I would still get there. And she was right. And I believe staying grounded and true to myself has helped. The little things they say makes the most difference.\n\nAway from the mental stuff (which comes first for me then spreads), covid has contributed to an immense shift and growth. Almost everyone I know has become more responsible. For me, I pay more attention to the things I feed myself. Food is one thing, mainstream media is another. I grew up so much and I love that I did. The lockdown didn't really take a lot from me, like most people, because I'm a indoor person. I just did what I knew how to do best – get lost within myself. But I also learned that I needed to be there more for the people I care about. Anything can happen at any time.\n\nThis has been my methods. Why don't you tell me yours?\n\n\n#psychology #life #survival #healing #originalcontent",
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"content": "So, I was told that the second stanza of a poem I wrote earlier is particularly good, and that I should create another poem with it. We'll, I did.<br /><br />This is the second stanza;<br /><br />My voice has grown light,<br />My thoughts are scattered,<br />Like yellow leaves falling off the trees.<br />I can see the flicker of light behind my eyes,<br />Like an errant firefly,<br />Waiting for me to reach it.<br /><br />--<br /><br />This is what I came up with. I wanted to begin with everything at first but figured I could break them apart and write something in-between. Read and tell me what you think.<br /><br />-<br /><br />My voice has grown light,<br />My thoughts are scattered,<br />Like yellow leaves falling off the trees.<br /><br />I can feel breath leaving my body<br />Bit by bit<br />Like a deflating balloon<br /><br />I'm like an exhausted child<br />So bullied by the world<br />He could barely stand<br /><br />But something is different<br />This time the dark clouds can't hold me down<br />I hear their gasps as they struggle<br /><br />I can feel the sun on my face<br />The smiling rays beckoning to me<br />The warmth melting my insides<br /><br />There's a flicker of light behind my eyes,<br />Like an errant firefly,<br />Waiting for me to reach it.<br /><br /><br />Hey, <a class=\"u-url mention\" href=\"https://www.minds.com/jackwgunter\" target=\"_blank\">@jackwgunter</a>. Here you have it. <br /><br /><br /><br /><a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=poetry\" title=\"#poetry\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#poetry</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=writing\" title=\"#writing\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#writing</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=freewrite\" title=\"#freewrite\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#freewrite</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=healing\" title=\"#healing\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#healing</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=originalcontent\" title=\"#originalcontent\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#originalcontent</a>",
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"content": "So, I was told that the second stanza of a poem I wrote earlier is particularly good, and that I should create another poem with it. We'll, I did.\n\nThis is the second stanza;\n\nMy voice has grown light,\nMy thoughts are scattered,\nLike yellow leaves falling off the trees.\nI can see the flicker of light behind my eyes,\nLike an errant firefly,\nWaiting for me to reach it.\n\n--\n\nThis is what I came up with. I wanted to begin with everything at first but figured I could break them apart and write something in-between. Read and tell me what you think.\n\n-\n\nMy voice has grown light,\nMy thoughts are scattered,\nLike yellow leaves falling off the trees.\n\nI can feel breath leaving my body\nBit by bit\nLike a deflating balloon\n\nI'm like an exhausted child\nSo bullied by the world\nHe could barely stand\n\nBut something is different\nThis time the dark clouds can't hold me down\nI hear their gasps as they struggle\n\nI can feel the sun on my face\nThe smiling rays beckoning to me\nThe warmth melting my insides\n\nThere's a flicker of light behind my eyes,\nLike an errant firefly,\nWaiting for me to reach it.\n\n\nHey, @jackwgunter. Here you have it. \n\n\n\n#poetry #writing #freewrite #healing #originalcontent",
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"content": "This is me trying to find my poetry again. I like how it came out.<br /><br />Take a look. I hope it finds you well.<br /><br />--<br /><br />I'm reaching out to old wounds<br />And new found warmness on my chest.<br />I'm watching my eyes light up,<br />As my mouth curve in a sweet smile,<br />Ready to chant<br />To this new tenderness.<br /><br />My voice has grown light,<br />My thoughts are scattered,<br />Like yellow leaves falling off the trees.<br />I can see the flicker of light behind my eyes,<br />Like an errant firefly,<br />Waiting for me to reach it.<br /><br />I'm floating,<br />Completely weightless above the wounds.<br />My nerves tingle as they heal.<br />Sometimes I panick and fight,<br />'Cos it's all I've known.<br />My soul is learning a new kind of jump.<br /><br />Dressed with new feelings<br />I mould every spot gently,<br />Drawing them close with my palms.<br />They've all grown soft,<br />So comforting it's almost unreal.<br />I loved the wounds but I love this more.<br /><br /><br /><a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=poetry\" title=\"#poetry\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#poetry</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=writing\" title=\"#writing\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#writing</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=freewrite\" title=\"#freewrite\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#freewrite</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=healing\" title=\"#healing\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#healing</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=originalcontent\" title=\"#originalcontent\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#originalcontent</a>",
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"content": "This is me trying to find my poetry again. I like how it came out.\n\nTake a look. I hope it finds you well.\n\n--\n\nI'm reaching out to old wounds\nAnd new found warmness on my chest.\nI'm watching my eyes light up,\nAs my mouth curve in a sweet smile,\nReady to chant\nTo this new tenderness.\n\nMy voice has grown light,\nMy thoughts are scattered,\nLike yellow leaves falling off the trees.\nI can see the flicker of light behind my eyes,\nLike an errant firefly,\nWaiting for me to reach it.\n\nI'm floating,\nCompletely weightless above the wounds.\nMy nerves tingle as they heal.\nSometimes I panick and fight,\n'Cos it's all I've known.\nMy soul is learning a new kind of jump.\n\nDressed with new feelings\nI mould every spot gently,\nDrawing them close with my palms.\nThey've all grown soft,\nSo comforting it's almost unreal.\nI loved the wounds but I love this more.\n\n\n#poetry #writing #freewrite #healing #originalcontent",
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"content": "This is a tad long. Stay with me.<br /><br />--<br /><br />I've always walked through life by myself. I had a difficult childhood. When I say difficult, I don't mean with my parents or my family in general. No. They're the best anyone could ask for. They were there and they still are. The difficulty I mean here is within myself. I was that child who didn't know how to share. Everything I felt was bottled up inside. It got worse when my siblings left home. I was the youngest so it was just me.<br /><br />What I didn't realise was how much I needed them. Siblings always fight and bicker, but the good thing about it is that most times, in-between fights, emotions fly and words are said. The feelings you think you can't share with anyone can come to the surface at that moment. That's where the healing process starts. Love also spreads. I never had that because I was way too young and they left way too early. So I did what I knew how to do best – I bottled.<br /><br />My Mama got ill and it got worse. I became hard to talk to. I built this high wall around me that if you aren't patient and persistent enough, you'd never reach me. I believed it was the way to go. I kept people at arm's length. When she passed, it was like a rope was cut inside of me. The one person who was close to understanding me was snatched away. I was convinced that I needed no one. I believed that no one could ever understand where I'm coming from. I didn't realise that life was about to teach me the hardest lesson yet, and that truth is;<br /><br />Being prickly makes you more alone.<br /><br />Being alone is one thing. Having people who care and refusing to be comforted is another. I didn't know how to receive love without panicking. I thought I knew how to give it. Took me a long time to see that I gave the tough kind. I thought I was protecting myself. I pushed people away and shut doors on their faces, and believe me when I say, people hardly have time for that. At the end of the day, you miss out on things and opportunities, and you can't blame anyone for it. It's all you.<br /><br />But it took one person to change the status quo for me. It was so random that I didn't see it coming. No, it isn't the romantic kind of love. It's the kind that holds your hand and shows you that being vulnerable only makes you human. The kind that corrects and questions without judging. The type that teaches you kindness and acceptance. This person kept pushing till I gave in. It was at that moment that I really saw how deep in I was. I tried to see myself from people's perspective and it wasn't a beautiful sight. Everything changed there and then.<br /><br />And my life began again.<br /><br />The funny thing is that you don't actually see how lonely you are till it happens. You wake up everyday, wrapped up in your own little sad world, believing things are okay, convinced that you need no one. Nothing feels out of place for you. You're all that you need and you're enough. But one tiny look outside your comfort zone can change a lot of things if not everything.<br /><br />We always hear that our shit is ours and no one gives a flying fuck. While I wouldn't completely refute it because yes, people can be shitty and things can be messy, there's always one person out there rooting for us. All we have to do is give it a chance.<br /><br />Maybe I got lucky. Perhaps there are those who truly have no one. If you're in that category, positivity can get you to your destination. It is when we let people in that they come and stay. They won't have that permission unless we give it to them. And most of the time, they're just waiting for us. This isn't to say that bad things won't happen, but I'd rather learn from them than not try at all. I've been there and it wasn't the best of places.<br /><br />The vibes you give off is what attracts people. Be for yourself, then give others a chance. Walls can be good but if care is not taken, it can also be the end of you. Be kinder to yourself and to people around you. Take it from me, no one wants to hug a prickly person.<br /><br /><br /><br /><a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=psychology\" title=\"#psychology\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#psychology</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=writing\" title=\"#writing\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#writing</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=healing\" title=\"#healing\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#healing</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=learning\" title=\"#learning\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#learning</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=originalcontent\" title=\"#originalcontent\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#originalcontent</a>",
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"content": "This is a tad long. Stay with me.\n\n--\n\nI've always walked through life by myself. I had a difficult childhood. When I say difficult, I don't mean with my parents or my family in general. No. They're the best anyone could ask for. They were there and they still are. The difficulty I mean here is within myself. I was that child who didn't know how to share. Everything I felt was bottled up inside. It got worse when my siblings left home. I was the youngest so it was just me.\n\nWhat I didn't realise was how much I needed them. Siblings always fight and bicker, but the good thing about it is that most times, in-between fights, emotions fly and words are said. The feelings you think you can't share with anyone can come to the surface at that moment. That's where the healing process starts. Love also spreads. I never had that because I was way too young and they left way too early. So I did what I knew how to do best – I bottled.\n\nMy Mama got ill and it got worse. I became hard to talk to. I built this high wall around me that if you aren't patient and persistent enough, you'd never reach me. I believed it was the way to go. I kept people at arm's length. When she passed, it was like a rope was cut inside of me. The one person who was close to understanding me was snatched away. I was convinced that I needed no one. I believed that no one could ever understand where I'm coming from. I didn't realise that life was about to teach me the hardest lesson yet, and that truth is;\n\nBeing prickly makes you more alone.\n\nBeing alone is one thing. Having people who care and refusing to be comforted is another. I didn't know how to receive love without panicking. I thought I knew how to give it. Took me a long time to see that I gave the tough kind. I thought I was protecting myself. I pushed people away and shut doors on their faces, and believe me when I say, people hardly have time for that. At the end of the day, you miss out on things and opportunities, and you can't blame anyone for it. It's all you.\n\nBut it took one person to change the status quo for me. It was so random that I didn't see it coming. No, it isn't the romantic kind of love. It's the kind that holds your hand and shows you that being vulnerable only makes you human. The kind that corrects and questions without judging. The type that teaches you kindness and acceptance. This person kept pushing till I gave in. It was at that moment that I really saw how deep in I was. I tried to see myself from people's perspective and it wasn't a beautiful sight. Everything changed there and then.\n\nAnd my life began again.\n\nThe funny thing is that you don't actually see how lonely you are till it happens. You wake up everyday, wrapped up in your own little sad world, believing things are okay, convinced that you need no one. Nothing feels out of place for you. You're all that you need and you're enough. But one tiny look outside your comfort zone can change a lot of things if not everything.\n\nWe always hear that our shit is ours and no one gives a flying fuck. While I wouldn't completely refute it because yes, people can be shitty and things can be messy, there's always one person out there rooting for us. All we have to do is give it a chance.\n\nMaybe I got lucky. Perhaps there are those who truly have no one. If you're in that category, positivity can get you to your destination. It is when we let people in that they come and stay. They won't have that permission unless we give it to them. And most of the time, they're just waiting for us. This isn't to say that bad things won't happen, but I'd rather learn from them than not try at all. I've been there and it wasn't the best of places.\n\nThe vibes you give off is what attracts people. Be for yourself, then give others a chance. Walls can be good but if care is not taken, it can also be the end of you. Be kinder to yourself and to people around you. Take it from me, no one wants to hug a prickly person.\n\n\n\n#psychology #writing #healing #learning #originalcontent",
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"content": "I've been constantly asking myself why I stopped writing. Last year was the year I wrote the most. After my Mama passed, the words were always at the surface. Even when I wasn't saying them, they were there in my brain, yelling to be set free. Perhaps it was the grief. I poured out everything I was feeling. While it was usually hard for me to form coherent sentences whenever I was feeling too much, I managed to do it. Then this year came and it all shut down. I couldn't find the words anymore. This is the eleventh month and I'm still struggling to find it.<br /><br />I've been happy this year. I don't want to believe happiness is why I can't write. Most of my writings were tied to my dark days. My stories and poems came from that darkness and struggle, and now that they aren't here anymore, I'm kinda lost. I don't know how to do happy writing.<br /><br />What I do know, however, is that I need to find myself and my writing, especially now. If I can do it now, I might never go blank this way again. But I don't know how. Sometimes I'm amazed at how easy things are for me right now. Waking up and having absolutely nothing to worry about. Walking through the day without panicking about the smallest of things. It still feels unreal.<br /><br />I embraced a huge part of me at the beginning of last year, the most important part. It took me time but I did it. And this year came with all the ease. The clarity is amazing. The comfort of knowing who you are and also knowing that you aren't going back to where you were before. It's the most beautiful thing. I never understood people in different kinds of transition when they talked about how exhilarating it was for them, till I got here. While our experiences are different and we went through different things, the process is the same. One day I'll talk more about this, maybe.<br /><br />This is me checking in and hoping that my writing comes back soon. How about you? How have you been?<br /><br /><br /><br /><a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=writing\" title=\"#writing\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#writing</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=ramble\" title=\"#ramble\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#ramble</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=freewrite\" title=\"#freewrite\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#freewrite</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=healing\" title=\"#healing\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#healing</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=originalcontent\" title=\"#originalcontent\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#originalcontent</a>",
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"content": "I've been constantly asking myself why I stopped writing. Last year was the year I wrote the most. After my Mama passed, the words were always at the surface. Even when I wasn't saying them, they were there in my brain, yelling to be set free. Perhaps it was the grief. I poured out everything I was feeling. While it was usually hard for me to form coherent sentences whenever I was feeling too much, I managed to do it. Then this year came and it all shut down. I couldn't find the words anymore. This is the eleventh month and I'm still struggling to find it.\n\nI've been happy this year. I don't want to believe happiness is why I can't write. Most of my writings were tied to my dark days. My stories and poems came from that darkness and struggle, and now that they aren't here anymore, I'm kinda lost. I don't know how to do happy writing.\n\nWhat I do know, however, is that I need to find myself and my writing, especially now. If I can do it now, I might never go blank this way again. But I don't know how. Sometimes I'm amazed at how easy things are for me right now. Waking up and having absolutely nothing to worry about. Walking through the day without panicking about the smallest of things. It still feels unreal.\n\nI embraced a huge part of me at the beginning of last year, the most important part. It took me time but I did it. And this year came with all the ease. The clarity is amazing. The comfort of knowing who you are and also knowing that you aren't going back to where you were before. It's the most beautiful thing. I never understood people in different kinds of transition when they talked about how exhilarating it was for them, till I got here. While our experiences are different and we went through different things, the process is the same. One day I'll talk more about this, maybe.\n\nThis is me checking in and hoping that my writing comes back soon. How about you? How have you been?\n\n\n\n#writing #ramble #freewrite #healing #originalcontent",
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"content": "I awake to a bittersweet feeling<br />Of you and your power over me<br />The guard on my mind is falling apart<br />The walls around my heart are crumbling slowly<br />You do things to me that I cannot explain<br />Lovely sensation that tickles and curls the toe<br />Causing me to lose track of time<br />Restless is now my second name<br />While I wait and watch for you<br />Hoping only for a glimpse<br /><br />Day and night you invade my dreams<br />Thoughts of you keep me awake<br />Of things we can do together<br />And the things I want to do to you<br />I’m torn between the choices I have to make<br />Whether to let you go or hold you tight<br />But I'm unable to choose<br />I cannot resist you no matter how hard I try<br />You’ve owned me completely<br />I love it even when I hate it<br /><br />Without you, I’m lost<br />Without your touch, I’m nothing<br />My memory is a mess when it comes to you<br />You always creep up to me<br />Snuggling in at odd times<br />Bringing smiles to my trembling lips<br />I never wanted you in the beginning<br />I loved staring at nature and enjoying the quietude it brings<br />Till you came along and changed everything<br />I don’t regret a single moment spent in your arms<br /><br />I need you so much I can taste it<br />I can’t breathe till I hear your voice<br />The so familiar goofy tone<br />Soothing the aches around my heart<br />It’s become a sweet pain<br />As normal as oxygen<br />Itching yet pleasurable<br />I throb with desire for you<br />Only your flavour can quench this hunger<br />Don’t make me wait forever<br /><br /><br /><a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=poetry\" title=\"#poetry\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#poetry</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=writing\" title=\"#writing\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#writing</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=passion\" title=\"#passion\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#passion</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=freewrite\" title=\"#freewrite\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#freewrite</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=originalcontent\" title=\"#originalcontent\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#originalcontent</a>",
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"content": "I want to listen<br />To your voice in my head<br />Calling and whispering sweet nothings<br />When the sun is yet to grace the sky<br />And the birds are resting<br />Waiting for dawn before they take flight<br />In light I know it’s you<br />In darkness I recognise your strength<br />You’ve become a part of who I am<br />That piece of me I wouldn’t want to lose<br /><br />I toss and turn in my sleep<br />My arms reaching out in search of you<br />You becloud my senses<br />With thoughts of who you were<br />And of the person you’ve become<br />Even in my dreams I long for you<br />To be quietened only by your strong arms<br />Draped gently over my breasts<br />Holding and soothing<br />Willing me back to sleep<br /><br />It’s like a fantasy<br />A story passed down in time<br />Not of a young maiden and her prince charming<br />Nor of a slave and her fairly god mother<br />But of two souls belonging together<br />Guarding what they both have<br />Never daring to leave each other's side<br />They cast their spells each day<br />Losing their hearts all over again<br />An enchantment nothing can break<br /><br />I’m yours in life as in death<br />Only your love tempers my wildness<br />You come to me like a music<br />A tune so melodious it lures to sleep<br />And your bright smile<br />That grin so beautiful it shames the sun<br />I choose to answer your call<br />With quiet whispers of my own<br />Let this love take me beyond<br />I’m satisfied so long as you are with me<br /><br /><br /><br /><a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=poetry\" title=\"#poetry\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#poetry</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=writing\" title=\"#writing\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#writing</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=freewrite\" title=\"#freewrite\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#freewrite</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=love\" title=\"#love\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#love</a> <a href=\"https://www.minds.com/search?f=top&t=all&q=originalcontent\" title=\"#originalcontent\" class=\"u-url hashtag\" target=\"_blank\">#originalcontent</a>",
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