ActivityPub Viewer

A small tool to view real-world ActivityPub objects as JSON! Enter a URL or username from Mastodon or a similar service below, and we'll send a request with the right Accept header to the server to view the underlying object.

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{ "@context": [ "https://www.w3.org/ns/activitystreams", { "ostatus": "http://ostatus.org#", "atomUri": "ostatus:atomUri", "inReplyToAtomUri": "ostatus:inReplyToAtomUri", "conversation": "ostatus:conversation", "sensitive": "as:sensitive", "toot": "http://joinmastodon.org/ns#", "votersCount": "toot:votersCount", "Emoji": "toot:Emoji", "focalPoint": { "@container": "@list", "@id": "toot:focalPoint" } } ], "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111064366917776537/replies", "type": "Collection", "first": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111064366917776537/replies?page=true", "type": "CollectionPage", "next": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111064366917776537/replies?only_other_accounts=true&page=true", "partOf": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111064366917776537/replies", "items": [ { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111067371654664327", "type": "Note", "summary": "咨询笔记", "inReplyTo": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111064366917776537", 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而且似乎没有什么会通常限制其他人的东西能限制我去做</p><p>我突然想起初中的时候我一直有个很大的疑惑,就是为什么大家都一定要和其他人一起去食堂吃饭、做作业、锻炼 etc 而这些都完全不是需要两个人一起做的事情</p><p>到大学了换了个国家朋友们因为担心需要一个人吃饭所以特地建群这样可以沟通一起吃</p><p>我也不能说完全不理解,毕竟在这样的social norm下很难不受影响</p><p>但是还是很难自己因为只有一个人就不去做很多事情(这周末的camping除外,我没办法单独和那些人相处)</p>" }, "attachment": [], "tag": [], "replies": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111067371654664327/replies", "type": "Collection", "first": { "type": "CollectionPage", "next": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111067371654664327/replies?only_other_accounts=true&page=true", "partOf": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111067371654664327/replies", "items": [] } }, "likes": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111067371654664327/likes", "type": "Collection", "totalItems": 2 }, "shares": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111067371654664327/shares", "type": "Collection", "totalItems": 0 } }, { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111087429895307025", "type": "Note", "summary": "咨询笔记", "inReplyTo": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111064366917776537", "published": "2023-09-18T17:54:20Z", "url": "https://m.cmx.im/@yx_/111087429895307025", "attributedTo": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_", "to": [ "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/followers" ], "cc": [ "https://www.w3.org/ns/activitystreams#Public" ], "sensitive": true, "atomUri": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111087429895307025", "inReplyToAtomUri": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111064366917776537", "conversation": "tag:m.cmx.im,2023-09-14:objectId=55330905:objectType=Conversation", "content": "<p>尝试观察了一下…根本看不出一个比一个会masking :Parrot21:</p>", "contentMap": { "zh": "<p>尝试观察了一下…根本看不出一个比一个会masking :Parrot21:</p>" }, "attachment": [], "tag": [ { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/emojis/67740", "type": "Emoji", "name": ":Parrot21:", "updated": "2020-12-24T22:26:12Z", "icon": { "type": "Image", "mediaType": "image/png", "url": "https://media.cmx.edu.kg/custom_emojis/images/000/067/740/original/cd7928f12862dc60.png" } } ], "replies": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111087429895307025/replies", "type": "Collection", "first": { "type": "CollectionPage", "next": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111087429895307025/replies?only_other_accounts=true&page=true", "partOf": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111087429895307025/replies", "items": [] } }, "likes": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111087429895307025/likes", "type": "Collection", "totalItems": 0 }, "shares": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111087429895307025/shares", "type": "Collection", "totalItems": 0 } }, { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111098831754289981", "type": "Note", "summary": "咨询笔记", "inReplyTo": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111064366917776537", "published": "2023-09-20T18:13:58Z", "url": "https://m.cmx.im/@yx_/111098831754289981", "attributedTo": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_", "to": [ "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/followers" ], "cc": [ "https://www.w3.org/ns/activitystreams#Public" ], "sensitive": true, "atomUri": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111098831754289981", "inReplyToAtomUri": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111064366917776537", "conversation": "tag:m.cmx.im,2023-09-14:objectId=55330905:objectType=Conversation", "content": "<p>这次是朋友的(unspecified for anonymity but also it probably does not matter</p><p>My therapist: “can I share some of my thoughts?”<br />“Yeah sure”<br />“Some of what you just talked about are very close to autism”<br />Me: “I know”<br />She’s obviously concerned that I will be too shocked to accept it<br />But thank you [my name] 🤡</p><p>我笑死真的</p>", "contentMap": { "zh": "<p>这次是朋友的(unspecified for anonymity but also it probably does not matter</p><p>My therapist: “can I share some of my thoughts?”<br />“Yeah sure”<br />“Some of what you just talked about are very close to autism”<br />Me: “I know”<br />She’s obviously concerned that I will be too shocked to accept it<br />But thank you [my name] 🤡</p><p>我笑死真的</p>" }, "attachment": [], "tag": [], "replies": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111098831754289981/replies", "type": "Collection", "first": { "type": "CollectionPage", "next": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111098831754289981/replies?min_id=111121502746216941&page=true", "partOf": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111098831754289981/replies", "items": [ "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111121502746216941" ] } }, "likes": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111098831754289981/likes", "type": "Collection", "totalItems": 0 }, "shares": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111098831754289981/shares", "type": "Collection", "totalItems": 0 } }, { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111103246832241567", "type": "Note", "summary": "咨询笔记", "inReplyTo": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111064366917776537", "published": "2023-09-21T12:56:47Z", "url": "https://m.cmx.im/@yx_/111103246832241567", "attributedTo": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_", "to": [ "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/followers" ], "cc": [ "https://www.w3.org/ns/activitystreams#Public" ], "sensitive": true, "atomUri": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111103246832241567", "inReplyToAtomUri": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111064366917776537", "conversation": "tag:m.cmx.im,2023-09-14:objectId=55330905:objectType=Conversation", "content": "<p>我:發student of color support group的信息給A 然後順手提到還有一個perfectionist support group </p><p>A:誒呀被你發現了(什麼時候發現的)</p><p>我:...挺明顯的</p>", "contentMap": { "zh": "<p>我:發student of color support group的信息給A 然後順手提到還有一個perfectionist support group </p><p>A:誒呀被你發現了(什麼時候發現的)</p><p>我:...挺明顯的</p>" }, "attachment": [], "tag": [], "replies": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111103246832241567/replies", "type": "Collection", "first": { "type": "CollectionPage", "next": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111103246832241567/replies?min_id=111103255715991150&page=true", "partOf": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111103246832241567/replies", "items": [ "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111103255715991150" ] } }, "likes": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111103246832241567/likes", "type": "Collection", "totalItems": 0 }, "shares": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111103246832241567/shares", "type": "Collection", "totalItems": 0 } }, { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111119902429118608", "type": "Note", "summary": "咨询笔记(需要CW 精神疾病/死亡/自杀", "inReplyTo": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111064366917776537", "published": "2023-09-24T11:32:31Z", "url": "https://m.cmx.im/@yx_/111119902429118608", "attributedTo": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_", "to": [ "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/followers" ], "cc": [ "https://www.w3.org/ns/activitystreams#Public" ], "sensitive": true, "atomUri": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111119902429118608", "inReplyToAtomUri": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111064366917776537", "conversation": "tag:m.cmx.im,2023-09-14:objectId=55330905:objectType=Conversation", "content": "<p>昨天晚上和室友聊天,聊到对方的高中同学的状态都不太好。室友对各种很极端的精神疾病的名词的了解程度让我挺惊讶的…… 我问她们觉得是学校的问题还是家庭的问题,她说是整体环境吧,可能是能把孩子送进这种学校的家庭都比较变态,以及聪明人太多还很有钱很努力容易让人心态不平衡。</p><p>也不知道怎么描述听到的时候我的感觉,毕竟和我所在的环境不完全一样,但是似乎又过于熟悉,在精神虐待方面和我经历过的很类似,所以有点劫后余生的感觉。</p><p>一定程度上可以说这些天龙人的事情轮不到我来care,但每次听到有人精神状态差到那个程度都不会很好受,所以应该会在下周和咨询师讨论。我感觉在引导室友说的过程当中对她们来说也是一种发泄,也是基于自己对话题的了解知道这样不会过界。她们提到一个自杀了的女生,发展出多重人格障碍,疫情期间退学回国被关在上海的精神医院,但是国内似乎这方面治疗水平非常糟糕。</p>", "contentMap": { "zh": "<p>昨天晚上和室友聊天,聊到对方的高中同学的状态都不太好。室友对各种很极端的精神疾病的名词的了解程度让我挺惊讶的…… 我问她们觉得是学校的问题还是家庭的问题,她说是整体环境吧,可能是能把孩子送进这种学校的家庭都比较变态,以及聪明人太多还很有钱很努力容易让人心态不平衡。</p><p>也不知道怎么描述听到的时候我的感觉,毕竟和我所在的环境不完全一样,但是似乎又过于熟悉,在精神虐待方面和我经历过的很类似,所以有点劫后余生的感觉。</p><p>一定程度上可以说这些天龙人的事情轮不到我来care,但每次听到有人精神状态差到那个程度都不会很好受,所以应该会在下周和咨询师讨论。我感觉在引导室友说的过程当中对她们来说也是一种发泄,也是基于自己对话题的了解知道这样不会过界。她们提到一个自杀了的女生,发展出多重人格障碍,疫情期间退学回国被关在上海的精神医院,但是国内似乎这方面治疗水平非常糟糕。</p>" }, "attachment": [], "tag": [], "replies": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111119902429118608/replies", "type": "Collection", "first": { "type": "CollectionPage", "next": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111119902429118608/replies?min_id=111119914208188220&page=true", "partOf": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111119902429118608/replies", "items": [ "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111119914208188220" ] } }, "likes": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111119902429118608/likes", "type": "Collection", "totalItems": 1 }, "shares": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111119902429118608/shares", "type": "Collection", "totalItems": 0 } }, { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111132126423228086", "type": "Note", "summary": "咨询笔记", "inReplyTo": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111064366917776537", "published": "2023-09-26T15:21:15Z", "url": "https://m.cmx.im/@yx_/111132126423228086", "attributedTo": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_", "to": [ "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/followers" ], "cc": [ "https://www.w3.org/ns/activitystreams#Public" ], "sensitive": true, "atomUri": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111132126423228086", "inReplyToAtomUri": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111064366917776537", "conversation": "tag:m.cmx.im,2023-09-14:objectId=55330905:objectType=Conversation", "content": "<p>很难概括<br />我得思考一下<br />今天主要是explore阻碍我表达情绪的各种原因</p>", "contentMap": { "zh": "<p>很难概括<br />我得思考一下<br />今天主要是explore阻碍我表达情绪的各种原因</p>" }, "attachment": [], "tag": [], "replies": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111132126423228086/replies", "type": "Collection", "first": { "type": "CollectionPage", "next": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111132126423228086/replies?min_id=111134527906356221&page=true", "partOf": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111132126423228086/replies", "items": [ "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111134527906356221" ] } }, "likes": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111132126423228086/likes", "type": "Collection", "totalItems": 0 }, "shares": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111132126423228086/shares", "type": "Collection", "totalItems": 0 } }, { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111215856295758446", "type": "Note", "summary": "咨询笔记", "inReplyTo": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111064366917776537", "published": "2023-10-11T10:14:51Z", "url": "https://m.cmx.im/@yx_/111215856295758446", "attributedTo": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_", "to": [ "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/followers" ], "cc": [ "https://www.w3.org/ns/activitystreams#Public" ], "sensitive": true, "atomUri": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111215856295758446", "inReplyToAtomUri": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111064366917776537", "conversation": "tag:m.cmx.im,2023-09-14:objectId=55330905:objectType=Conversation", "content": "<p>...希望下周therapy前状态能好起来<br />I feel awful with no clear explanation<br />不过大概也能理解therapist当时说的you are not ready <br />怎么会这样((</p>", "contentMap": { "zh": "<p>...希望下周therapy前状态能好起来<br />I feel awful with no clear explanation<br />不过大概也能理解therapist当时说的you are not ready <br />怎么会这样((</p>" }, "attachment": [], "tag": [], "replies": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111215856295758446/replies", "type": "Collection", "first": { "type": "CollectionPage", "next": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111215856295758446/replies?min_id=111233419032709014&page=true", "partOf": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111215856295758446/replies", "items": [ "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111233419032709014" ] } }, "likes": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111215856295758446/likes", "type": "Collection", "totalItems": 1 }, "shares": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111215856295758446/shares", "type": "Collection", "totalItems": 0 } }, { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111257514307525388", "type": "Note", "summary": "咨询笔记", "inReplyTo": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111064366917776537", "published": "2023-10-18T18:49:02Z", "url": "https://m.cmx.im/@yx_/111257514307525388", "attributedTo": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_", "to": [ "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/followers" ], "cc": [ "https://www.w3.org/ns/activitystreams#Public" ], "sensitive": true, "atomUri": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111257514307525388", "inReplyToAtomUri": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111064366917776537", "conversation": "tag:m.cmx.im,2023-09-14:objectId=55330905:objectType=Conversation", "content": "<p>讲完这两周发生的事情和我发现的事情以后<br />咨询师:我听着也累了<br />我:btw我没讲完</p>", "contentMap": { "zh": "<p>讲完这两周发生的事情和我发现的事情以后<br />咨询师:我听着也累了<br />我:btw我没讲完</p>" }, "attachment": [], "tag": [], "replies": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111257514307525388/replies", "type": "Collection", "first": { "type": "CollectionPage", "next": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111257514307525388/replies?min_id=111261496993130129&page=true", "partOf": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111257514307525388/replies", "items": [ 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"<p>咨询师:接下来的两周会有很多discovery, it will be very eventful, or to use your favorite term, interesting</p><p>我: :ablobcatknitsweats:</p>", "contentMap": { "zh": "<p>咨询师:接下来的两周会有很多discovery, it will be very eventful, or to use your favorite term, interesting</p><p>我: :ablobcatknitsweats:</p>" }, "attachment": [], "tag": [ { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/emojis/67606", "type": "Emoji", "name": ":ablobcatknitsweats:", "updated": "2020-12-24T21:25:06Z", "icon": { "type": "Image", "mediaType": "image/png", "url": "https://media.cmx.edu.kg/custom_emojis/images/000/067/606/original/111b13fac818cfcf.png" } } ], "replies": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111257616992021544/replies", "type": "Collection", "first": { "type": "CollectionPage", "next": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111257616992021544/replies?min_id=111257618802587683&page=true", "partOf": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111257616992021544/replies", "items": [ "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111257618802587683" ] } }, "likes": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111257616992021544/likes", "type": "Collection", "totalItems": 0 }, "shares": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111257616992021544/shares", "type": "Collection", "totalItems": 0 } }, { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111275789290860416", "type": "Note", "summary": "咨询笔记", "inReplyTo": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111064366917776537", "published": "2023-10-22T00:16:36Z", "url": "https://m.cmx.im/@yx_/111275789290860416", "attributedTo": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_", "to": [ "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/followers" ], "cc": [ "https://www.w3.org/ns/activitystreams#Public" ], "sensitive": true, "atomUri": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111275789290860416", "inReplyToAtomUri": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111064366917776537", "conversation": "tag:m.cmx.im,2023-09-14:objectId=55330905:objectType=Conversation", "content": "<p>这两周对自己的发现可能是过去半年的therapy session都没做到的</p><p>略微恐怖但是感觉自己处理的还可以</p><p>bf问我为什么不会说自己喜欢什么,然后我突然想起来...</p><p>长大过程中一直很害怕表达自己喜好什么,因为会觉得被别人知道以后就会被毁掉,我觉得会毁掉的人obviously是我妈(</p><p>但是也很contradictory因为我也有她按照我的喜好给我做菜带我出去玩的记忆</p><p>...但确实我的成长过程一直很inconsistent所以充满了这种矛盾</p><p>其实想想挺难受的,但是我感觉自己确实不那么受影响了</p><p>今天另外一个朋友说某一天想起这些的时候不会再产生剧烈的情绪波动,就是痊愈的时刻了。</p>", "contentMap": { "zh": "<p>这两周对自己的发现可能是过去半年的therapy session都没做到的</p><p>略微恐怖但是感觉自己处理的还可以</p><p>bf问我为什么不会说自己喜欢什么,然后我突然想起来...</p><p>长大过程中一直很害怕表达自己喜好什么,因为会觉得被别人知道以后就会被毁掉,我觉得会毁掉的人obviously是我妈(</p><p>但是也很contradictory因为我也有她按照我的喜好给我做菜带我出去玩的记忆</p><p>...但确实我的成长过程一直很inconsistent所以充满了这种矛盾</p><p>其实想想挺难受的,但是我感觉自己确实不那么受影响了</p><p>今天另外一个朋友说某一天想起这些的时候不会再产生剧烈的情绪波动,就是痊愈的时刻了。</p>" }, "updated": "2023-10-22T00:17:00Z", "attachment": [], "tag": [], "replies": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111275789290860416/replies", "type": "Collection", "first": { "type": "CollectionPage", "next": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111275789290860416/replies?only_other_accounts=true&page=true", 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"tag:m.cmx.im,2023-09-14:objectId=55330905:objectType=Conversation", "content": "<p>以下是這週會留給咨詢師的部分,需要trigger warning </p><p>和bf講以前發生的事情,說到剛來的時候其實很resentful 會覺得為什麼自己會經歷那些(雖然也完全知道為什麼)後來慢慢的就不太去想那些過去了</p><p>也不是遺忘,更多是有了一些距離。這種感覺很神奇,因為我並沒有感覺時間有過那麼久。也能感覺到即使是在這麼講述的時候我的狀態也很不一樣,但可能因為在bf旁邊所以沒有很負面,所以是很神奇的體驗。</p><p>我說,我的媽媽其實大部分時候是很好的人,尤其是對朋友,所以對我的abuse是她只展現給我的部分,非常私人,也因此格外難被識別,而唯一知道的人是親眼目睹的人,也就是我爹和我外婆。有一個例外是我外公,他可能是第一個也是唯一一個覺得這些對我的性格塑造有很大負面作用,他和我媽說你這樣長期下去不行,但也僅此而已。</p><p>bf說你再也不會是一個人了,不論我們的關係是否持續,我也只能沈默。</p><p>其實也越來越發現自己是不擅長親密關係的人,雖然很多事情我都會,但我來做就顯得格外刻意。也不能對自己要求過高,能有一個相當健康的關係我覺得我已經很不容易了。</p>", "contentMap": { "zh": "<p>以下是這週會留給咨詢師的部分,需要trigger warning </p><p>和bf講以前發生的事情,說到剛來的時候其實很resentful 會覺得為什麼自己會經歷那些(雖然也完全知道為什麼)後來慢慢的就不太去想那些過去了</p><p>也不是遺忘,更多是有了一些距離。這種感覺很神奇,因為我並沒有感覺時間有過那麼久。也能感覺到即使是在這麼講述的時候我的狀態也很不一樣,但可能因為在bf旁邊所以沒有很負面,所以是很神奇的體驗。</p><p>我說,我的媽媽其實大部分時候是很好的人,尤其是對朋友,所以對我的abuse是她只展現給我的部分,非常私人,也因此格外難被識別,而唯一知道的人是親眼目睹的人,也就是我爹和我外婆。有一個例外是我外公,他可能是第一個也是唯一一個覺得這些對我的性格塑造有很大負面作用,他和我媽說你這樣長期下去不行,但也僅此而已。</p><p>bf說你再也不會是一個人了,不論我們的關係是否持續,我也只能沈默。</p><p>其實也越來越發現自己是不擅長親密關係的人,雖然很多事情我都會,但我來做就顯得格外刻意。也不能對自己要求過高,能有一個相當健康的關係我覺得我已經很不容易了。</p>" }, "attachment": [], "tag": [], "replies": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111520202571397321/replies", "type": "Collection", "first": { "type": "CollectionPage", "next": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111520202571397321/replies?only_other_accounts=true&page=true", "partOf": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111520202571397321/replies", "items": [] } }, "likes": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111520202571397321/likes", "type": "Collection", "totalItems": 1 }, "shares": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111520202571397321/shares", "type": "Collection", "totalItems": 0 } }, { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111540567830755056", "type": "Note", "summary": "咨询笔记", "inReplyTo": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111064366917776537", "published": "2023-12-07T18:33:16Z", "url": "https://m.cmx.im/@yx_/111540567830755056", "attributedTo": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_", "to": [ "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/followers" ], "cc": [ "https://www.w3.org/ns/activitystreams#Public" ], "sensitive": true, "atomUri": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111540567830755056", "inReplyToAtomUri": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111064366917776537", "conversation": "tag:m.cmx.im,2023-09-14:objectId=55330905:objectType=Conversation", "content": "<p>沒時間寫所以省略細節...</p><p>說了一半咨詢師拉開一個她在我面前從來沒動過的抽屜,拿出一包開過的haribo然後開始stress eating(我知道因為她告訴我她在stress eating</p><p>...有點好笑 但是也太慘了(為自己</p>", "contentMap": { "zh": "<p>沒時間寫所以省略細節...</p><p>說了一半咨詢師拉開一個她在我面前從來沒動過的抽屜,拿出一包開過的haribo然後開始stress eating(我知道因為她告訴我她在stress eating</p><p>...有點好笑 但是也太慘了(為自己</p>" }, "attachment": [], "tag": [], "replies": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111540567830755056/replies", "type": "Collection", "first": { "type": "CollectionPage", "next": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111540567830755056/replies?only_other_accounts=true&page=true", "partOf": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111540567830755056/replies", "items": [] } }, "likes": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111540567830755056/likes", "type": "Collection", "totalItems": 1 }, "shares": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111540567830755056/shares", "type": "Collection", "totalItems": 0 } }, { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111550796109921015", "type": "Note", "summary": "咨询笔记", "inReplyTo": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111064366917776537", "published": "2023-12-09T13:54:27Z", "url": "https://m.cmx.im/@yx_/111550796109921015", "attributedTo": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_", "to": [ "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/followers" ], "cc": [ "https://www.w3.org/ns/activitystreams#Public" ], "sensitive": true, "atomUri": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111550796109921015", "inReplyToAtomUri": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111064366917776537", "conversation": "tag:m.cmx.im,2023-09-14:objectId=55330905:objectType=Conversation", "content": "<p>Noted for next session</p><p>虽然知道自己应该暂时不去想这些事情但还是很难过</p><p>不过发现了一个很便捷的方法就是…强行在思考事情的时候把语言换成中文</p><p>…能立刻屏蔽很多unwanted thoughts 也是很神奇的发现</p>", "contentMap": { "zh": "<p>Noted for next session</p><p>虽然知道自己应该暂时不去想这些事情但还是很难过</p><p>不过发现了一个很便捷的方法就是…强行在思考事情的时候把语言换成中文</p><p>…能立刻屏蔽很多unwanted thoughts 也是很神奇的发现</p>" }, "attachment": [], "tag": [], "replies": { "id": "https://m.cmx.im/users/yx_/statuses/111550796109921015/replies", "type": "Collection", "first": { "type": "CollectionPage", "next": 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